This Friday my final examination is officially start.
So, normally I went to Library as usual because as a professional "Eleventh Hours" student.
During study, I went out the Library to fill my empty bottle and I met one of my friend.
So, the conversation is opened.
"Hey, tonight have meteor rain, do you join them go suburbs watch meteor?" he asked.
I shook my head lightly.
" That person din't call, huh ?" He asked.
" I asked, but rejected. Actually I realized we never even closer."
"Why said so ? " He asked again.
" Actually we just had texting in Whatapps and just made one call conversation before." I whispered.
"Bro, you too rush already. But, call conversation is one of the milestone in any relationship."
"Isn't it ? But I just think the timing is wrong, anyway. I'm not ready yet."
“ Who is?? " He said.
"Maybe I just too rush. But, at least I put myself out there."
" Make it slowly. Relationship actually like a book. Got introduction, climax, and have ending. Need to ascending, have a nice introduction will make the book interested. So, first impression is very important.....( blablabla)"
" Hmm, I've make it slowly. Thank you." The bottles is fulled filled.
On the same night, the person I admired and I just had a quite big quarrel. The meteor shower we cannot met each other again. I just keep quite and hearing and get the points the person scold me although too many criticism of that person think about me .But after heard the points, I just realized how rude that I been. After that, I just smile and said "Thank You for letting me know" and keep on apologize. The fire of the quarrel just keep on burning and eventually I just make myself slut-up and non-defensive .
I sit in front of my laptop, and the tears just come out droplet and droplet without any feeling.
Yes, I did again. I piss the person that I admired off again. I knew we cannot be in relationship anymore. The bad attitude of mine, Impulsive made a biggest mistake again.
But actually , I din't felt very sad on the first time I rejected. I make my mind so clear and I'll keep myself to improve in anyway. I know I'm not handsome, no money, no have too many supporters. So, I cannot depend too much on those stuff. I need to self-treatment myself. Although I so self-defended in real life but when come to relationship, I just a stupid pig.
I had to make responsibility in what I did to anyone that I hurt before. Maybe you do not want forgive me, but here, I need to apologize to you all again.
To, anyone that I might annoyed, harassed, hurt, worried before.
"I'm sorry and dad, mom, I love you"
Awww, there have a meteor ....
Let make a wish first.
p/s: After this, I gonna become a happy, reborn boy. Welcome all my friends, nice to meet you again. Wishes all of us will be happiness in anytime.